Monday, July 5, 2010

yours truly

Here's a picture of yours truly that one of the firefighters took after a call at work:
It's one of the very few pictures I like of myself, probably because this photo captures me where I am in my element and most comfortable in my skin and my surroundings. I wish I could bring that comfort level into my own home. Unfortunately, I have yet to figure out motherhood and I'm just making things up as I go along, flying by the seat of my pants, and learning from my children, and from my own mistakes. If you were to take a snapshot of me at home I would be a disheveled sweaty mess, sometimes feeling like a failure, feeling the pressure to get all the things I need to get done but not accomplishing half the tasks I've set out for myself. And often feeling completely worn down. (I don't get a lot of 'atta boys' at home although Jacob did offer me one of his stickers from his star chart when he noticed I had tidied the house.) But at work, for some reason I feel polished, assured, wise and in control. I feel like I have fire instead of blood running through my veins. I have no idea why. Maybe it's because work is my refuge and my haven and it's better than a five star hotel. Maybe it's because the sleepovers are even better than the sleepovers I had as a kid. Maybe it's the uniform. Maybe it's the bunker gear that gives me super human powers. Who knows? Just super glad that I'm headed back on shift in the morning because after a few days off I sure do miss the smell of diesel and smoke. That's the beauty of my job, I am at home long enough to crave being back at work. And I am at work long enough to crave seeing my little family at the end of a shift.

Off to bed. I'm on the ladder truck but gonna try to slide over to the pumper since it's a busier truck and runs more calls. Let's see what tomorrow brings. xo


  1. OH. MY. GOSH.

    YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! I mean, you've already got a great bod... hard to get to your level..but whoever who took this picture is fantastic!!

    You actually look so dewy and soft and yet with your surroundings and uniform, look no-nonsense and ready to get to work in a sec!


  2. Awwwww. Hugs and thanks for the lovely comment. xo

    I was just having a great day at work and the firefighter who shot the picture caught me in a great moment. The sun was setting into the bay and we just pulled the trucks back inside. I was just feeling content. For some odd reason, even though my job can be risky. I feel the safest and most secure at work.

    Anyway, thanks for posting. you made my day. :) xo