more new beginnings

Not only did I suffer the loss of my little family being split through divorce, I have had to watch my fire crew getting picked off and moved to different stations, myself included. The repercussions on morale have been indescribable. Almost like a divorce, there is this sense of shock, denial, pain, feeling of rejection. And grief from the separation. The higher powers that be in this paramilitary system called the fire department decided it was time to split up my crew..... one that has worked incredibly  well together for so long. But with every challenge, there is a silver lining. Time marches on and we realize, well at least I do, that there are new adventures to be had even if it means we are scared shitless of what lies in the unknown. And that the only way to stop feeling afraid is to put one foot in front of the other even if you really don't feel like it sometimes.